The Final Bonfire: Will I Choose Myself, my Ex Fiancé, or a New Man?
Those of you who are following along on this wild journey already know that, not too long ago, my world was turned upside down by my little experimental reality TV stint. My fiancé fell “head over heels” for another woman on Temptation Island. I went through it all; pain, anger, embarrassment, fear… you name it. I felt like my heart shattered into a million pieces. But through those moments of despair, something really incredible happened. A spark ignited within me – the spark of self-worth and immense strength. So as we step into tonight’s episode of the final bonfire I just wanted to let you into my head back on Temptation Island, where I had to make the ultimate decision: Myself, my ex fiance, or a new Man?
Rediscovering My Power
With the decision looming over my head I felt nothing but confusion. I wanted to prioritize myself, but I also didn’t want to make the wrong decision. I had moments where waves of empowerment rushed over me, I thought about the fact that I had been neglecting my own needs, dreams, and desires throughout my entire relationship. I thought about how this breakup became my opportunity to rediscover who I am as an individual and how I had even begun to make other romantic connections outside of Hall, something I truly didn’t think was possible. But in other moments, all I could think about was going back to my old life and starting all over again.
The Gift of Self-Love
Through this journey, I have learned the invaluable lesson of self-love. I have come to understand that self worth extends far beyond the love and validation of another person. I am complete just as I am, with or without a partner by my side. And that realization has empowered me like never before. I am deserving of love, respect, and happiness, and I won't settle for anything less. This journey also showed me that you CAN have that and also have a partner!! 🤯🤯 In fact, the goal is to have that WITH your partner. Meeting Sebby started to shine a little ray of hope onto that for me. With him I felt the beginnings of what a relationship is supposed to feel like. And it felt goooooood.
Honesty is the Best Policy
Temptation Island opened up my relationship with Hall in a way that it never would have without it. It made us dig inside ourselves for what we really wanted and shed a light on the truth- good and bad. It made me find the independence I was desperately craving. And taught me that being independent doesn't mean being alone; it means embracing the strength and capability within myself.
Through it all, I have discovered that I am my own rock, my own hero. I don't need anyone else, new or old, to validate my existence or make me feel whole. I DO have everything I need within me. And that realization is the most empowering feeling in the world…. But when it comes to love (and more importantly Temptation Island) what am I going to do with this new exciting feeling?
I guess you’ll just have to tune in to see…